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| 11:49am 21/07/2005 |
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EVERYONE! I'M changing my Journal to. ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) mi_hermanita_ Because you know...I like that song and this username is kind of...bleh to me. I choose a nutral user name so I don't scare people away.
So, add it. KTHX bai! |
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| 06:26am 19/07/2005 |
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mood:  stressed music: Tank - Maybe I deserve
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Okay, well like I said in last update, I'm going to stay home for another two weeks. Not saying I'm going to be online as much, or at all. But whatever, everyone knows how I feel and that I love them.
=D My Dad told me I can have the dryer when I move, I'm like taking all my room. x_X! Which is a very very large dresser, a smaller one, a bed a few shelves, my TV, my computer desk -minus my computer- I think I'm goint to sell it so I'll have cash. And my personal stuff.
Things are so insane right now. Anxioty attacks everywhere. But I'm glad I stopped taking my meds. Because, I don't want to become dependant on them or anything. Damn you zoloft and the L one that I can't remember the name of.
Haven't heard from Jose since Friday, which isn't a new thing. He doesn't even has his own phone. So hopefully I get mine paid off and turned back on so I have some mode of conact to the outside world besides borrowing his sisters. -sigh-
Moving is stressful, plus some other things that are going on in my life. I hope all the fucking stuff fits in Jose's truck bed XD if not, we're fucked.
But I already have a job source over there. Which is good, Rosie [My nephews girlfriend] Told me she has hook ups and stuff so I'm going to check it out. I'm glad I have a fall back plan when I'm up there. Insted of having no one. <333 Rosie, love you muchly.
So, I'm going to do some minor work around the house and for family members and earn like fourty bucks XD for two weeks. I know it's sad but hey, Money is money and people need it to servive. bleh bleh bleh.
anyways, Tank is the best singer ever even if the song Maybe I deserve is old as hell, because it's just awesome that way. |
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| o_o I shall never leave? |
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| 04:21am 17/07/2005 |
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mood:  worried music: N/A
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At least for another two weeks.
Well here's the deal. I'm not leaving as soon as I thought I was. I'm actually going to be home for another two weeks until Jose gets paid on the 30th.
Why am I not moving, you may ask. Well because he only got three hundred and something dollars for his check and the apartment is 200 and something dollars. So he wouldn't even have money to go to and from work.
-heavy sigh- And, the little money I did have, I gave to him this morning when he left back home. All thirty-three dollars of it. You might think that was dumb. But I have an excuse. He has to pay his sister fifty dollars, and pay for insurance on his truck. He would have only had thirty dollars to last him the two weeks. So, might as well make it sixty and have him not worry about how he's gong to make it to work each and every day. Well like I said, for that short two weeks. Sixty dollars should work. At least I hope.
If not.
I'll [and I will anyways] have to work again. Not that I mind, I like working. It's just I don't charge much. Lol because I work for my family and you can't really end up charging them alot because it's like...not right. I suppose. Even if I do really need the money. -is the most nice spic ever- ^O^ Okay not really.
The only thing that worries me about Jose. Is that he's letting my family make up his mind for them. Because he knows my family thinks that it's not right that I'm still with him after all the shit that he's done. And I agree, it's not right. But, love makes you do some crazy things. But he's having second thoughts because he said "I don't want your family to hate you." Me: "Jose, I fucking told you. They don't have any say in our relationship. They don't have to date you, I do." <==True statement.
I don't think anybody has the right to say anything to us about being together. A few critisisms are fine. But when it gets to the point where it actually interfears that's when it should stop. I'm nine-teen. I think I'm capible of making my own choices and mistakes. Even if it ends up hurting me in the long run. I'll learn from it hopefully, and become a better person.
Anyways, their ends my rant and mindless update. |
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| Phu!~ |
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| 08:00am 16/07/2005 |
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mood:  aggravated music: N/A
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I haven't left.
To tell you the truth, it's making my anxioty worse. =\ I hate boys. |
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| Awesome, I love this. |
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| 11:54am 14/07/2005 |
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mood:  Love-ly-ness music: Nothing, just TV
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: think about this...
You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.
*PLEASE READ THIS WHOLE POST IT'S SO TRUE*
1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.
( Now, I'll tell my great friends how I feel. )
Like I always say, I miss out on people. Don't think anyless of yourself. I'll always love you. Because you're great. |
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| I cried, how sad |
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| 11:49am 14/07/2005 |
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mood:  sad music: N/A
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BOY: I saw her today
GIRL: I saw him today
BOY: It seems like its been forever
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares
BOY: She looks better than before
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him
BOY: I asked her how things were going
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend
BOY: I'd choose her over any girl im with
GIRL: He's probablly really happy right now
BOY: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry
GIRL: He couldnt even look at me
BOY: I told her I miss her
GIRL: He doesnt mean it
BOY: I meant it
GIRL: He didnt mean it
BOY: I love her
GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend
BOY: I held her for the last time
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug
BOY: Then I went home and cried
GIRL: Then I went home and cried
BOY: I lost her
GIRL: I still love him
ALWAYS SAY WHATS ON YOUR MIND!!!!!
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At this very minute...
someone is thinking of you
someone cares about you.
someone misses you
someone wants to hold your hand.
someone wants you to be happy.
someone wants to hug you.
someone will do anything for you.
someone needs to know your love is unconditional.
someone wants to tell you how much they care.
someone wants to stay up watching movies w/ you.
someone wants to hold you in their arms.
someone wants to see you.
someone wants to be your lover.
someone loves you for who you are.
someone loves the way you make them feel.
someone wants to be with you.
someone wants you to know they are there for you.
someone is glad that you're their friend.
someone is wishing you would notice them.
someone wants to get to know you better.
someone loves you.
someone wants to hear your voice |
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| LMAO! |
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| 10:14am 13/07/2005 |
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You know you're living in 2005 when..
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1) you accidentally enter your password on a microwave
2) you haven't played solitaire with real cards in years
3) thE reaL reason for not staying in touch with friends is that they don't have a screen name
4) you'd rather look all over the house for the remote instead of just pushing to button on the tv.
6) your boss dont even have the ability to do your job.
7) you read this list, & keep nodding and smiling
8) as you read this list, you think about sending it to all your
friends
9) and.. you were to busy to notice number 5.
10) you actually scrolled back up to check that there was no 5
11) & now you're laughing at your stupidity
repost this if u think this is true |
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| o_o -bored- |
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| 10:12am 13/07/2005 |
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mood:  bored music: Genuwine - Pony
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If you..
love me................leave a love comment
like me.................leave a sweet comment
hate me...............leave a "lets b kewl" comment
wanna marry me....leave a "will you marry me?" comment
fuck me............. leave a "i want to fuck u" comment
think im a hottie.................leave a dirty comment
care about me ....................leave a caring comment
REPOST THIS AND SEE HOW MANY COMMENTS YOU GET |
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| 10:06am 13/07/2005 |
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START with 100% and SUBTRACT 5% for each thing you've done on the list. Then sign the list on the bottom with your percentages, copy, and repost as new bulletin to compare with your friends. The lower the percentage, the sluttier you are.
1. smoked
2. drank
3. hook up with someone while drunk
4. done drugs
5. given a handjob/gotten a handjob
6. french kissed
7. felt someone up/been felt up
8. given a blow job/gotten a blowjob
9. made out with 2 dif people in a 12 hour period
10. had sex
11. had a threesome
12. watched porn
13. made your own sex tape
14. done any sexual act on a school campus
15. Made out for over a hour
16. had sex/messed around in your room while your parents were home--
17. had sex/messed around in a public place or somewhere where there was at least one person present
18. gotten caught having a party
19. used sex toys
20. snuck into someone's room/your own room after being out-
Amy.........30%.....im a good girl! ;)
Lucy >>> 25% is that bad? ; p
sHeLbI~~~45%
Dylan-55% did i pass?
Ruhtie~* 40% I guess im a real slut LOL*~
Keagy---} 45% ;)
Mariah------90%
Mina~~~~~20% Damn now i feel dirty lol
Tiffany~~~90% I feel good!!!!!
Kyle---------25%
liiindsay- 15% (wtf?! i'm not that bad i swear!!!)
Jessica 5% (ummmm thoes questions weren't even that bad)
Tonya...20%
Mindy. . . 40% i could be worse..haha
Johnnyboy120687....40%......i feel sorry for jessica
breanna-50% haha im not this good i swear... lol i dunno im half good half bad i guess
Flip-uh like 20% im a dirty whore ha ha
patrick-50% so yeah i dont know what the rating is but i'm in the middle MWAHAHAHA
jacie-75%.. wow..
Conrad-40% damn i need to stop bein a slut
Missy- 100% no i didnt cheat
Kelly-100% OH YEAH
Benny-G --> 95% ahh close
Bekah-95%unslutified
Liz-60%-im not a prude but not a slut :D
Sheebs-70 % wow im no where near a slut! SCORE!
Cassandra--> 60% ... not to bad lol
Jake - 30%
Tracy- 25% YES... I'm a bigger slut than Jake
Alex-85%.....well just look at me and that expalins alot!
Sam Fuckin' Probeyahn - 0%.....No Comment.
Jenn- 50% .. wow
Belce- 60% not bad lol im not a slut man! wohoo=)
DaveDenzLeoN - 10% ( OMFG ) lol
ashley~70% oh yeah! im good
lyzza- 20%.............yuck..i`m not a slut.....
brand-35%....the numbers speak for themselves
Gareth-35%.. omm but wot does sneakin into ur room or doing drugs have to do with you being a slut :S
Kirstee- 70% =D Oh Yeah. Im A Good Girl. I Know Someone Whos Done All These. No Doubt *Cough*
claire- 30%
kt~10% dont mean im a slut tho! was fun
GN Rich - 30% (does this mean im not good natured anymore :P)
GAV -20% HAHA COME ON AWESOME.
Linzi - 15% ummm HAHA!
Kirsty - 0% :/
Joe - 10%
Christine-15%
virus 0%-what can I say, I've lived my life
Debbie~~ 5 F*ING %....WOW.At least I had fun?
Richard - 100%
Angela - 15% Can You guess which ones I haven't done??
Ricky - 5% - hahaha, fun times...
Cami 20% - LMAO o_o I'm no angel! |
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| I haven't left yet. >>; |
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| 06:59am 13/07/2005 |
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mood: sad music: Genuwine, RL, Tyrese, Case - The Best Man I can be
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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Camila
Birthday: June 26, 1986
Birthplace: Milwaukee
Current Location: Uvalde, Texas, USA
Eye Color: Blue/Gray
Hair Color: Brown Sugar [It said it on the box!]
Height: 5'1"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Left
Your Heritage: Mexican
The Shoes You Wore Today: Sandles o_O
Your Weakness: Jose
Your Fears: Losing everyone I love
Your Perfect Pizza: Hand Tossed peporoni and pinapple
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Be happy
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: XD WTF?
Thoughts First Waking Up: 'eh? <--Yep that's my thought.
Your Best Physical Feature: My eyes and lips [So I'm told >>]
Your Bedtime: Whenever I'm tired
Your Most Missed Memory: Living in Wisconsin when my grandma Carmen was alive
Pepsi or Coke: Neither
MacDonald or buger king: Burger King
Single or Group Dates: Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino
Do you Smoke:Yep
Do you Swear: Yep
Do you Sing: Yep
Do you Shower Daily: Yep
Have you Been in Love: Yes
Do you want to go to College: Yep
Do you want to get Married: Yep
Do you belive in yourself: 'eh?
Do you get Motion Sickness: Sometimes
Do you think you are Attractive: Sometimes
Are you a Health Freak: Half
Do you get along with your Parents: Sometimes
Do you like Thunderstorms: Nah
Do you play an Instrument: Guitar, when I try
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Yes
In the past month have you Smoked: Yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs: Yes >>;
In the past month have you gone on a Date: 'eh...No
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: No
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: Nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Nope..
In the past month have you been on Stage: Nope.
In the past month have you been Dumped: Yes x_X
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: >> << Noooo?
Ever been Drunk: Yes
Ever been called a Tease: Yes
Ever been Beaten up: yep
Ever Shoplifted: Yep? Wait...I don't think I did o_O I was with my friends when they did.
How do you want to Die: Under my control >>
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: No Idea
What country would you most like to Visit: I don't know anymore. I'm happy in America
Favourite Eye Color: Depends on the person. I suppose.
Favourite Hair Color: Dark
Short or Long Hair: o_O ON a guy? Short, fade probably
Height: Taller than I?
Weight: o_O Not a fat ass but not a twig either
Best Clothing Style: 'eh, I like how my boyfriend dresses o_O Not ghetto, not prep, but not skater either. -can't explain-
Number of Drugs I have taken: >> << 1?
Number of CDs I own: Uh, over the years? XD I like own none.
Number of Piercings: Two, my ears
Number of Tattoos: N/A
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Too many to count.
I'm leaving this friday. ;-; Miss me |
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